Year in Review - 2018

Now is the season for when you'll hear a lot about what other people accomplished during the year, and as writers we might be a bit sad about hearing how people published books and got agents and all the stuffs, while we might not feel like we did quite as good.

I get that, I'm with you. And I did publish a book this year, mind you. Yet, I feel the same. I could have done more, I could have done better, I didn't do as good as they did, and so on.

You know what? You did amazingly. Why? Because you're here. You got through another year, you kept on networking, you kept on working on your craft, and you kept on writing. That's plenty enough and that's amazing. Use that to avoid the January slump that many others fall into, keep it up, keep being amazing at the thing only you can do: being and doing you.

Lots of fluff, right? Well, yes and no. Yes, if I hadn't struggled this year I would also roll my eyes at this and brush it aside as some "positivity guru shit" and move along. Which is fine, bye bye! But for those of us who have struggled, and continue to struggle with things, whether that's depression or dried up imagination or something else entirely, it's good to hear stuff like this.

You're enough, you did good, and you're doing good. Take care of yourself and I'll see you at the finish line.

Yearly goal

Every year I write down 5-6 overarching goals that I wish to achieve during the year, and then at the end of the year I look back and see if I did or not. Over the year, I break them down and have quarterly goals that I strive to complete, which helps me stay on track and challenge myself.

  • This year's goals were:

  • Finish Sword of Dalkor

  • Finish first draft of Brewing Trouble

  • Do something related to my writing every day

  • Make my company grow

  • Improve my health

  • Learn the basics of piano

Let's go through them and see how I did:

Finish Sword of Dalkor

I did! It was published on September 1 and I was so happy to see so many of my friends be there and support me during the launch party and beyond. This really solidified my path as an author for me. I was a bit of a skeptic about it all until I got it in my hands and other people actually read it! I'm also blown away with the feedback, both the compliments and the suggestions for improvements I've received. This was, by far, the biggest goal for me personally this year, and I'm so happy that it happened.

Finish first draft of Brewing Trouble

I did not. Mostly because I ended up starting Project Black instead, which means that Brewing Trouble is rescheduled all together for the time being. I'm quite okay with not fulfilling this.

Do something related to my writing every day

Indeed I did! Thanks to that I've been productive, I've learned a lot of things, and I've progressed in areas otherwise quite stagnant.

Make my company grow

Marginally, but yes. I'm not going to go into this one more as it's quite personal.

Improve my health

This one I did as well. It's been quite a fight, but I finally gathered enough energy to fight them to get them to do something for once. So, mission accomplished!

Learn the basics of piano

Very, very much no. :P It'll just have to be one of those things that I'll learn when I have time in the future.


The streaming life happened a little by accident, truth to be told. I started doing it in order to get my mind of work, which I was thinking about all the time to the point of being sick constantly because I couldn't sleep properly, but then it just snowballed into this little community that I now have. It's absolutely amazing and I love it.

I frequently worry about what I can do to improve and make sure people are enjoying themselves, to the point that I sometimes slip up and forget that I need to enjoy myself too. That's when Jack (as my boyfriend's online handle is) steps in and reminds me of why I started, for which I'm eternally thankful for.

I'm honoured to have met such amazing streamers via it, and so grateful to have met such nice and supportive viewers. There's no way that I could thank each and everyone individually, even though I'd want to, so I'm going to have to keep it to the few that has had the most influence and support in the whole endevour.

Myian. The first streamer I came in contact with in the Planetside 2 community, and I can't believe my luck! Such an amazing person: positive, supportive, helpful, and inspiring. Not to mention, so skilled! In more than just the game. Myian, you are so easy to talk to, and whenever I wonder something you're always willing to help out, and you always make me feel so incredibly hyped about writing and world building, and just generally make me feel seen and supported. So, thank you and I hope we only become better friends from now on! <3

Jergens. One of the happiest people I've had the pleasure of meeting online. While you might not always be there during my streams, when you are I always get more energy. You're supportive and engaging, and isn't afraid to joke around with me, and that means the world to me. I hope to see more of you in the future, and I just wanted to say thank you for spending some of your valuable time in my streams! <3

Smurlog. Where to start? You're supportive, and funny, and always make sure to stop by, even when you don't always have time. You talk when no one else does and you make the streams easier to do. You turned 18 during the short time I've known you, and at first I thought you were lying because you were so mature. While you might not know what you want to do yet, I'm sure that whatever you set out to conquer you'll do it well and the world will be ever so much better thanks to it. I'm so happy to have you as a viewer, and a mod, and I wanted to say thank you for doing your best and being so supportive! <3

Drew and Garrett. Planetside 2 developers I can't believe spend their time in my streams sometimes. I'm super happy to have met you both, and I can't thank you enough for being so supportive and a positive influence in both my streams and in the game's community. You guys give me hope that people working in the gaming industry can be progressive and hold discussions with not-in-the-know people like me. I wanted to say thank you for spending time with me in my streams and being so helpful when I don't understand something, and I hope to continue to see you there! <3

If you weren't mentioned, please don't take it personally. I appreciate all of you so extremely much, both for being so supportive with my bad playing and somehow worse health/work schedule. I just wanted to highlight these few because they've been active outside of the streams as well, and helped me through some less than positive times, whether they know it or not.

You are all amazing and I love you all for it, and I hope to continue seeing you in my streams, coming 2019! <3


So how has my actual writing gone? In the goals section above I say that I've done something related to my writing everyday, but does that mean I've written every day?

No, no I haven't. I've written most days, but not every day.

I didn't participate in NaNoWriMo this year. Instead, I put a personal goal of 5k words, and that I succeeded with. Being realistic towards yourself is as important as having discipline and writing regularly, not just when inspiration hits.

I haven't attended any writing circles or meet ups. I've been too busy with other aspects of my life that I've just had to find time when I'm home or on the move to get the words down, and on occasion talk to people online. Which reminds me, I have a discord server that I'm building towards having an active community of writers (part of it is for my streaming stuff as well, but if you're not interested in that you won't have to even get a single notification from it). Feel free to join:

I have been very active on Instagram. It's been hard work but I've managed to keep a fairly regular post schedule on Instagram, and these last few weeks I've been playing with more content on Instagram Stories as well. I quite liked that so I'll be working more with some graphical aspects of the content as well.

I haven't kept up with my blog posts, that's for sure. I'm okay with that, however, since I got so much else done this year. 2019 will be a year I aim to publish at least one blog post every month, and hopefully a little more in the style I have wanted to move towards (a little more education and deep dives).

Thank you, everyone, for spending time with me in streams, on Discord, and in person. Thank you for reading my things, listening to my wailing on stream, and for being awesome and supportive people. I hope to see more of you in the future and I look forward to build an amazing community with you in it! <3